Today

I've kind of fell off the face of the blogging world huh?

I've been trying to post 'happy, fun, love, kids smiling' things, as to mask my heart and true emotions.

When people ask, "How are you?" I usually begin to tear up. Not because I'm bad, but because I don't know how I am; physically. Physically I feel like I am falling apart. Emotionally, I am tired. Spiritually, I am trying to be a sponge and soak it all in and at times that is overwhelming.

I explain it as, "I feel like I'm in a holding pattern." Meaning, I'm not sure where to go or where I am going. I'm just waiting.

I just need some good news. I feel like I haven't really had a good laugh in a while.

I can't go out and do a bunch of stuff with the kids b/c if I get an episode I don't know what I'll do. I can't lay in the car for an hour until it passes. If I walk too much, that usually will trigger one.

I'm just tired. I used to worry about what I have, now I tend to worry about doing too much and getting an episode. I feel bad that I can't take the kids to the water park. I can't go outside with them. I just am tired. I want to do some sort of exercise, but I'm kind of scared something will set it all off.

Sorry to be all 'Debbie Downer,' but it's just where I am.

I'm reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan and so far it is wonderful. It has been very uplifting.(Not that this post is reflecting that. But you should have seen me a few weeks ago.) I may share what I'm learning, I don't know.

For now, I'm just waiting. I go to the neuro on July 22. I am excited for that.

Have You Seen A Good Movie Lately?

Have you seen a good movie lately?

We haven't. We aren't movie goers though; we're too cheap. We rent through Redbox.

If you are like us and haven't seen a good movie or if the last movie you rented was picked by your wife and it was NO GOOD then....

...join us at a lifechurch.tv campus for AT THE MOVIES, starting July 11th!! Come see how God uses Craig & movies to speak to your heart.

It's a good time and always a good message, SOOOOO find the nearest campus and go! Below is the list of campuses, click the city name to see their times and location.


Arizona
Phoenix
Florida
Wellington
New York
Albany
Oklahoma
Edmond
NW Oklahoma City
Oklahoma City
South Oklahoma City
Owasso
South Tulsa
Stillwater
Tulsa
Tennessee
Hendersonville
Texas
Fort Worth


FINE PRINT: You will not be able to see the messages online, you can only view these at your local theatre/campus.
FINE PRINT UPDATE: Apparently you can see the messages online for the ATM series. MY MISTAKE. I thought in the past this wasn't available. Geez. Loosin' my mind.

Coop & Dad

A Hair Cut

We finally took Chloe to get her hair cut. I wanted Matt to be there and every Saturday I would think to take her, but would forget. Matt didn't have to work on Friday, so off we went.

This is the place, Kid Dooz. So cute, perfect for kids.
The front area is a safari theme. Chloe informed us of every creature she would find hiding in the trees throughout the room.

This is the little area kids where can create a shampoo to their smelling. Chloe got the squirt bottle treament, which was free. And she was ok with that.

Chloe in her chair/ car. She got to watch Dora while the lady cut it.

Now this is the girly room. Once Chloe was finished we went in here to take pictures. When she walked in she gasped and said, "Is this MY room?!" And proceeded to touch every single thing.
Before.

Just after.

After in the girly room. She wouldn't/couldn't focus. She was in awe of her surroundings.

Her certificate certifying her first hair cut.

The Ride Home

We went to my Dad's house for the fourth. He and his wife just bought a house. They used to live in a teeny tiny apartment on Riverside in Tulsa. They have been in it for just a few weeks. Their old apartment over-looked the river, it was the BEST spot in town to see the fireworks! You were at eye level with them. Amazing. BUT no more of that. Which is fine. I'll give up fireworks for space and a yard for the kids!

Funny Chloe story, she's full of them these days. We were at my Dad's, Chloe is looking out the patio door and she says to me, "Mom I see a fireman!" I said, "A what honey?" Trying to ensure I heard her correctly. "A fireman!!" She screams at me, very excited. Now my Dad's backyard is not big at all, it's city size. I walk over, look and see nothing. My Dad's wife, shuts the blinds just in case. I let the comment go thinking, "Oh she's just using her imagination."

A while later I go outside and can hear the familiar sound of large fireworks detinating. Then the bell in my head went off. She means fireWORKS not fireMAN! So I go inside and say, "Chloe do you mean fireworks?"

"Ya, mom, fireworks man." Too funny.

Anyways, we didn't purposefully see fireworks this year, but I was determined to use the BULB mode on my phone.

Driving down the road going 65mph. This is what BULB mode makes cars look like. If you've ever wondered how they make cars looks funny on TV, it's a mode like this. Super slow shutter. The light is absorbed in motion. I'm not a techy but that's how I explain it to myself.

This was taking from a moving vehicle through the window.

The streams of car lights would look better if the car wasn't moving and I could use a tripod.

Different aperture setting. I think the above was at like 14. Made the lights yellower.

Anyways, hope everyone is doing well.

He's ALIVE

So Cooper is 15 months old today. I realized that just now. I was trying to think of a title for this post and thought of the one above b/c he is starting to walk more often. Then I realized today is his 15 month birthday!!

Everyone agrees they grow up way too fast. But I think they grow faster when you have two kids to mess with.

Coop is a haus. He weighs about 25 lb's and is just a head heights shorter than Chloe. I drove by a baseball field here in town and there were a handful of little boys playing ball. I had a moment of forward thinking, I saw Cooper out there playing and wearing his baseball hat that made the tops of his ears stick out. I pictured me picking him up from baseball camp and him saying, "Mom, I got a really good hit and Coach said I did good!" Then I picture him attacking his Dad as soon as he walks in the door with the same story. And Chloe saying, "See my dress daddy? Don't I look like a princess?" And Matt saying, "Good job Coop and yes honey you do."

More Chloe Thoughts

Did you know...

... the water that comes out of the water toys at the splash pad tastes better than the puddles it created? I learned that, now pray I don't get sick with a hard to pronounce word.