Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Chloe as a Tiger/ Cat

Chloe was watching "Reading Rainbow" and they were showing tigers playing with their trainers. At one point, the tigers began licking their paws. I look over at Chloe and I see her licking her 'paw.' I said, "Are you licking your paw like the tiger?"

"YAHHH!" She says all fired up.

So I had her re-enact what tigers say and how they lick their paws.





She's all over the place b/c she wants to see herself in the screen.

Monday, September 15, 2008

SNL

I didn't watch SNL, but saw part of this clip. It's kind of scary how good Tina Fey is at being Palin!! She even has the northern accent!! Too funny, the two of them.


Saturday, September 13, 2008

A Journal Entry...

A year ago today this is what I wrote in my journal that I keep for Matt...

9-13-07 Thurs. 11:30pm

Well, tonight has been an emotional night. We had to run to the ER b/c I was bleeding. We were told everything looks fine as of now, but that it can change. They did an U/S and we could see the baby and it had a heartbeat, bu they said to not get our hopes up. I'm scared b/c if I lose it they have to do a terrible procedure and I'm sad b/c we saw it and it just got more real. Before the U/S it was sad, but now if something goes wrong it'll hurt more. Now we wait and pray.
What more can we do? Sad thing... Nothing.
But I love you so much Matt.
Megan

Weird how looking back I can see and still feel what I felt a year ago. I look behind me and I see the little body that I thought I would never meet, lying in bed, sucking his thumb, not knowing the wiser.

I don't mean to stir emotions in people, sorry if I did. I love you all. And I love you my Cooper Bug.

Friday, September 12, 2008

The Sun Is OUT.... Ohh now it's gone.

So the sun has been out off and on this morning!! I love the rain, but after a few days of darkness I become dark inside. I get grouchy and lazy and slightly depressed. It's really weird. I don't think I could live in Alaska.

I finally decided to completely give up pumping/breastfeeding. My last pump was on Tuesday. Yesterday was painful, so I had to pump a little out. Then this morning one boob was fine and the other was hard as a rock and it hurt so bad, so I had to let Coop help me out a little. He hadn't nursed in over a month and he new exactly what to do; like riding a bike I guess.

I kept having this inner battle while laying in bed last night, "Am I making the right decision?"

When I woke up this morning, I felt ok with my decision. I'm sad but I think I would be sad if I quit today or in 2 months. I never felt this sort of indecisiveness with Chloe. I think it's just a different relationship Cooper and I have. I feel closer to him in a different way than I feel to Chloe. I guess it's the whole dynamics of mother-son and mother-daughter relationships. Just like Matt's relationship with the both of them is different.

I'm looking forward to getting my small boobs back.

(This is why he has no bumper!)

I spent yesterday making a tutu for Chloe. I started Wednesday night and finished it yesterday. Did she want to wear it after I got done making it? NO!! So who did she want to wear it?



Elmo!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

In A Fog

Do you ever have those days where you are so tired you wish your kid(s) could and would watch Sesame Street or TV all day long?

Today was one of those days.

I got up early this morning; 7:50. That's early for me. I wanted to attempt to get some 'things' done before the kids got up ie, drink a cup of coffee, pump, make breakfast, eat and possibly read. As soon as my alarm went off and I got up, I could hear a stirring in Cooper's room; he was already awake. So I pump and that's all I could get done. About 8:20, I finish and get Cooper. He had pooped, no wonder he was awake.

I feed him, he poops again. I change him again.

I start to get Chloe's breakfast ready and I am going to bake myself some muffins. There's only literally 1 cup of milk left. Do I sacrifice and give it to Chloe or do I make her sacrifice? She can have juice. If I give her that last cup of milk I won't have anything to eat. (We need to go to the store, but have been putting it off.) I make her take one for the team; I use the milk.

Sesame Street comes on at 9:00am. Chloe and I curl up in the recliner around 9:45. I just want to sit there all day and not move.

A friends calls and invites us over. I say yes, but I really just want to go to sleep, but that isn't possible so I should at least get out and maybe that will help.

I grab a huge travel mug and fill it up with creamer and a shot of coffee and head over to her house. Chloe does some things that would normally lead to never being invited over again. I see her do these things and I re-act, but probably not how I should have. I am just too tired to even care. I try to get on to her best I know how. (She hit their dog in the head with a toy.)

We go outside and I see her, but I'm kind of out of it. Thankfully the other mom would tell her when she shouldn't do something.

Just one of those days. I tried drinking creamer and coffee, but that didn't work!

If this entry is odd, it's because my mind quit working at approximately 7:50 this morning and I can't find the ON switch.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Has Anyone Seen My Political Soapbox?

There it is, thanks.

So I'm back on it again, that soapbox of mine. I'm sure many of you own soapboxes, you just may not use them as I choose to use mine. That's fine, I don't hold it against you, so don't hold it against me when I step up on mine. I've said before that I am a journaler. I love to write things down and since this blog, I now enjoy typing things down; much faster.

The topic I am undertaking while on my soapbox? POLITICS! (oohh, aahh, boo, hiss, gasp, click on the next blog, talk about me you may)

I'm just going to lay it all out there, I mean I chose to get up here in the first place, so I will not hold anything back.

I have decided that I really like Palin; the VP nominee from Alaska.

I don't really agree with McCain or Obama, but I like that Palin is 100% pro-life. That alone is enough to get my vote. I, personally, can't vote for someone who is pro-choice. Does the fact that her 17 year old daughter is pregnant? No. Why? Because my sister got pregnant at 16, does that mean my mother was a bad mom b/c she chose to work instead of staying home with my sister and I? No. Has anyone thought about the fact that Palin's daughter didn't get pregnant with out help. My Chloe Joy may come home one evening and break the very same news to her father and I. (I pray that doesn't happen.) Or Cooper Matthew could come home and say his girlfriend is pregnant. The same could happen to you, even though you raised them differently. I just like her and it doesn't bother me that she chooses to work.

There is much more I could say about how I feel, but I'll move on to my next topic.

OPRAH. (oooh, aahh, gasp, boo, hiss, Oh no she di' 'int) Oh yes I did.

I've been straddling the fence on my like or dislike of Oprah, long before campaigns. I don't care that she supports Obama; I mean really isn't that expected? I don't care about the fact that she was boohooing her eyes out during his speech; isn't that expected as well? (*cough* yes) Should she be required to have Palin on her show? Absolutely not! Has she had Obama on? Yes. Was it before he was running for Pres.? Yes. Does it really matter? To me, yes. It just proved to me that Oprah is slightly partial to say the least. I will say, with much caution and nervous fingers, Oprah is pro-women until something better comes along: an African American man. (Oh no she di' 'int just say that.) I'm afraid I did. Take it or leave it, but like I said this is my journal, not yours. Please don't hate me. (here is the article.)

Come 4:00pm on CBS will I be tuning in to Oprah? Nahhh. What if she chooses to have Palin on? I might watch, but ultimately I have been thinking I probably shouldn't entertain her ideals anymore and I guess I won't. There are just some things I shouldn't support. Should you watch Oprah? SURE!!! I don't care what you watch, say, eat, drink, smell, wear, drive, how you vote, or how big your feet are.

Next topic: CELEBRITIES BACKING CANDIDATES (oooh, here she goes again, stepping on toes) Sorry, you should move your feet.

Does it bother me that celebrities back certain people they like? NO NO NO!! Here is what my sign would say:

I may not be a celebrity,
BUT
my vote counts the just the same.


Excuse me, please stop throwing tomatoes at me, I warned you this was only my opinion. If you'd like, you can borrow my soapbox if you have misplaced yours.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Coop 5 Months!

Pictures of the kids at the park. This was right as the remnants of Gustav were making their way into Bartlesville. You could see the clouds, but it didn't rain very much.





I had to throw in a picture of Chloe with the Elmo Mama bought her for her second birthday.