Monday, July 18, 2011

Weekly "I AM"

Outside my window... Give you one guess as to what is going on outside my window. (enter Jeopardy music) You guessed it! Nothing! It's too hot!! Ugh, it's just so miserable. I know everyone is sick of hearing about the weather, well, I'm sick of having the weather to talk about! Would much rather say, "Oh it's lovely outside my window."

I am thinking... C1 & C2 start swim lessons tonight. C1 is fired up, even though she doesn't know what swim lessons are.  C2, well, he's C2. We got new neighbors. I think the man is a cop. I'm gonna say the cop car out front is a dead give away, but who knows I could be wrong. I hope he is, this road needs a cop car sitting on it to slow down the 'speed hump jumpers.' I'd like to get a tan, but too hot to lay in the sun. I don't fake bake. Learned my lesson when I got two spots cut out of my body, yes out. I also don't worship the sun like I used to. My Derm gave me a good scare. Lesson: wear sunscreen!

I am planning to cook... I have a soup thing in mind for tonight, but honestly, I have no idea what's for dinner this week. It's too hot to think about it. Going to the store is just too much work in this heat, I can't think straight. It'll be a weird, busy next two weeks with swim lessons each evening.

I am reading... I bought a Corrie Ten Boom book that contains stories of forgiveness. I wish I could have met this woman, she has seen the hand of God. Amazing. Guess we will have plenty of time to chat in Heaven.

I am hearing... Not much because C1 & C2 are at school, and C3 is sleeping. I do have Pandora radio on and The David Crowder Band is singing. I created a Shane & Shane station. The. best. music.

I am learning... I learn every morning how to parent. I feel like I fail miserably every. single. day. But I am trying to forgive more. I say forgive, I really mean forget. I realized I tend to hang on to something the kids did that was wrong. One might call it a grudge. I need to stop putting them on this pedestal of behavior. If I were on a pedestal before God, I'd already have failed. Grace. I have been shown an unspeakable amount of grace. I need to show that to my kids.

I am praying... How to parent the older two. To move closer to Tulsa and for the kids. And for C3 to learn how to sleep without being swaddled.

1 comment:

  1. All parent seem to think they didn't do a good job of rising their children, remember the first time a child said no is the first decision every child makes, after that all parent's can do is to teach that we have options. So don't be so hard on yourself, as my Mom told me. To do the best you can with what you've got, it will always be good enough. As for looking back on the past your judging yourself (and them)on who you used to be, not on who you are today. Just love and support them, it will all workout.


For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. -Corinthians 5:14