"Why won't God heal my son, Megan?"
This was the question given to me by a friend. It is one in where I have no answer.
"I don't know." I told her.
I wrote about reading The Hiding Place. That book has changed me. To thank the Lord while going through what Corrie Ten Boom went through during her time in various prisons during World War II, is something you have to learn from.
So when I was tossed this question, I twisted it to pertain to me. "Why won't God heal you?"
There have been lots of sermons, Bible verses and words from books pass across my eyes and heart lately. All of it by no accident. All these things are forming this beautiful bulb of a lesson that I am seeing sprout and will eventually bloom. I just hope the blossom stays forever and never fades.
Steven Furtick, author of Sun Stand Still, spoke at our church recently. He told a story about his grandfather. Furtick's grandmother was suffering terribly from Alzheimer's and the grandfather was caring for her. If you have ever met someone with this awful disease you know the grief a loved one goes through in caring for a person who's brain is not their own.
When the grandfather was asked, "How are you?" He would respond with, "100 percent." Furtick would say how he thought his grandfather was lying, he could not be one hundred percent. Then realized something.
"It depends on what you are measuring. If you are measuring his life according to his circumstances then no, he's not 100%. BUT if you are measuring his faith? Well, his faith stayed at 100%." -Furtick
His grandfather was finding Joy. His Joy was NOT in his circumstances but in His faith!
This is me!! I am seeing Joy everyday, at least I am trying. I am finding this wonderful joy in my faith and not in my circumstances. This body is not mine. It is God's. If he wants it to be scarred from head to toe, then so be it! I have to proclaim Him and I have to tell my story. How lucky I am to have a story. How boring it must be to have the white picket fence, dog, maybe a cat.. the perfect life and no story.
"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." - Genesis 50:20
So while I know not why God won't heal her son or heal me. I will enjoy the journey. I will love turning the pages to my story as God narrates. I will listen with an open heart and thank Him for thinking of me when He sat down to write.
I pray no matter what story you are living, you will stop and thank God for being the perfect Author to a best seller; your life story.